Monday, 14 November 2016

Life Update- Where has 2016 gone? xx

Hello my little geeks! 

Hope you have all had a good week :)

It came to my attention that I haven't done one of my life updates/blog of the months in a very very long time so I thought it was about time I wrote one and update you all on my life a little bit. As always I will try and separate things into sections to make it easier to read if I can but you all know love to ramble :)


Anxiety and mental health


all year, it has been a mix of good and and times however as autumn and winter time hit I think its hit a very very bad point, I think for a few reasons:

1. I think not being very happy at college, I still love my course, and tutors, I especially love darkroom and film photography which is quite new but very fun, however duet a few things (not going to talk about them in this blog post may do a separate blog post about it) I have notarially fitted in hat well with people at college and making friends. This has meant I am not feeling that great about it and my anxiety plays up even more when at college, however I am working on this, trying some clubs like the feminist group (which I love being in was I am big feminist anyway!) so maybe this will help and if not then it means as long as I am on top of coursework then I can use my free periods to write more for my little geeks so it's not all bad! plus it's not like i don't have friends outside of college, I have some brilliantly amazing, also slightly crazy friends from horse riding especially my best friend who is just awesome, and I have quite a few blogging/internet friends who are amazingly talented and awesome :)

you know that new cartilage peircing I talked about in the last blog of the month? when me and my best friend were out shopping and we randomly and spontaneously decided to get another cartilage piercing ? yeah didn't go so well, turn out it I think the lady that did it, must of put mine (and my best friends who had to let hers heal over) in at a bad angle or something as through the 8 week healing period it was always sore and red, when I finally took it out, it went bit gross and was bleeding lots and then at the back was a lump and anytime I tried to put another earring in it hurt and bleed too much, so I let it heal which I loved it (other then the pain.) so yeah don't get your ear done in claries!

we have settled into our new house now, and I love it, I will give you a new room and possibly a new house tour at some point maybe?

I AM SO BUSY!!! 


Yes, I am insanely busy these last few months, college takes up alot of my time (pretty much all weekdays apart from Monday afternoon and Wednesday afternoon,) then Monday afternoons I volunteer at my local library (actually here now as I am writing because I have no time to write at the minute) then coursework takes up most of my time at home and then Saturday I work at a cafe,some point in the week I have to do a driving lesson (I can't wait to pass my test hopefully soon as then i will have more time and freedom to go wherever I want whenever I want :) cant wait) whenever I can I try and see my best friend now she in in University (only a short train journey from me) and I try and help her with her blog (greenbeeorg.wordpress.com she is awesome please go read and follow :) please) and then I have things like trying to read, trying to watch youtube and try and have family time and things like that and then go horse riding ever week or so,

yeah my life is pretty busy right now but my holiday is soon coming up and bring on christmas :)


I think that is all I have to update you on this time my little geeks :)

Fun news a little blogging friend of mine, read my last blog post, and wrote a response to it, I will link it here please go read it it very good and it made my day when she messaged me and said she was writing a response :)


Also i am very sorry for not putting a Sunday photography up yesterday, I got super busy with horse riding, family things, sorry I will not let it happen again :)

That's all, for now,

Thank you for reading my little geeks :) what have you all been up to this week ? anything fun? also leave one book/movie or music recommendation in the comments -would love your ideas :)
tell me in the comments :)


Love you all!
thanks for reading :)



reminder of the schedule

Sunday 11 AM UK time  Sunday Photography on here

Monday 7 pm UK time New Blog Post on here



Don't forget to leave any book recommendations in the comments as I am always looking for new books to read :) 

Thanks for reading hope you enjoyed I love you!!


 Don't forget to check out other social media and follow/like/add so you see what I get up to in the week and keep update so you don't miss out on any blog posts!

twitter: @GeekyGirlOnline


facebook page for my photography : https://www.facebook.com/GeekyGirl-Photography-690324537737302/?ref=bookmarks

Instrgram : @geekygirlonlineofficial

Snapchat: onlinegeekygirl

Younow.com/geekygirlonline

Feel free to click the follow button :)

I love you so so much!

As always

GeekyGirlOnline  going offline xxxxx 





Monday, 7 November 2016

Is being an introvert a bad thing? xx

Hello my little geeks !

Who else is just as excited as me for christmas? now halloween is over its acceptable to listen music and counting down till christmas (even though I have done this since July lol) yesI am excited that's an understatement, only 47 days to go!

Enough of me rambling we all get I am excited for christmas!

This maybe a ramble as I am expressing some thoughts in this blog post and they may get jumbled and may not always make sense.
Recently, I have been thinking a lot and nothing that I am different. Don't worry this is definitely not a new realisation, I have definitely always known I was different for years, Maybe since year 3 (aged 7 ), just its come to my attention more and more recently and has made me think a lot more. my best friend's house party (go read that blog post about the house party here)bought this issue/ subject to my attention.
I thought the house party was fine, I thought I managed to work on some of my fears, and be able to be slightly normal for a night and everything was fine, well sort of, but oh I was wrong.

I had a conversation though text with this friend, (she knows all about my anxiety and fears etc and is the one person who I tell everything to, so if she reading this : thank you for always being there for me your great sending internet hugs! , she won't read this lol) The conversation went something like this (just summing it up:)
"you didn't drink, I wanted to help you but you blew your chance, I was trying to help, trust me alcohol helps with anxiety I was trying to get you to have a laugh and join in but you refused and backed down, I tried to help you but you blew your chance." These weren't her exact words and she wasn't as harsh as I made her sound just now, she was just plain honest.

She was right though, I didn't try, I kept hiding, I didn't try, I didn't push myself. I just stayed in my little head. I failed myself that night. I failed my friend she tried to help me, she gave me an opportunity and I blew it.

She was really mad at me for blowing my chance. (She hasn't really spoke to me since this conversation I think she is still quite mad at me and ignoring me but then again I might just be over thinking things as always but it just feels like she is still very mad at me.) and I am even angrier at me for failing, I wanted to try, I want to change and I want to try and have fun and be a normal teenager its just very hard, with social anxiety.

I leave you with this question..Is being an introvert really bad? I mean I spend lots of time reading/writing and doing art which are things I love but should I be more like my friends and spend time drinking and hanging out with friends even if I am uncomfortable with it?

I don't know. These are mixed thoughts.

I am sorry if I rambled or if I was negative in this blog post, I just needed to express some thoughts. 

I leave you with the question to answer and share your pinions in the comments :) "Is being an introvert a bad thing?"


Love you all!
thanks for reading :)



reminder of the schedule

Sunday 11 AM UK time  Sunday Photography on here

Monday 7 pm UK time New Blog Post on here


Don't forget to leave any book recommendations in the comments as I am always looking for new books to read :) 

Thanks for reading hope you enjoyed I love you!!


 Don't forget to check out other social media and follow/like/add so you see what I get up to in the week and keep update so you don't miss out on any blog posts!

twitter: @GeekyGirlOnline


facebook page for my photography : https://www.facebook.com/GeekyGirl-Photography-690324537737302/?ref=bookmarks

Instrgram : @geekygirlonlineofficial

Snapchat: onlinegeekygirl

Younow.com/geekygirlonline

Feel free to click the follow button :)

I love you so so much!

As always

GeekyGirlOnline  going offline xxxxx